All I Want For Christmas...

...is my very own 'Mike'...

ps: only XiaXue's readers will understand...

>.<

Random Snippets of Zurich...

was in Zurich earlier and i spent the whole two days there all by myself...din meet anyone or talk to anyone...

just me...my thoughts...and okie...perhaps my lappie...

O:P

had a walk by myself around the hotel...the truth is...eventhough i go to Zurich at least once a month...i din spend much time outdoor...most of the time i'll be in the room sleeping or surfing the net...so much for 'seeing the world' huh...

the weather was pretty nice that day...nice and not too cold...it was snowing the day before...and i was hoping to get some nice shots of the beautiful snowy white scenery...but unfortunately when i woke up all the snow melted...FML!

>.<

so here are just some random snapshots from my boyfriend aka my BabyG10...



just in case u forgot my face!
O:P


beautiful clear blue skies....



CocaCola factory!


one of my fave shots...

dunno why...but just by looking at this picture it can give me the very serene and calming feeling...bringing me back to the moment when i was taking this picture...

so quiet...so calm...so soothing....

********

sometimes its really tiring to be around people all the time...to put up a face and smile all the time is exhausting...sometimes i just like being by myself..enjoying my own company...when i can just be myself...i can laugh if i want...i can cry if i want...there is no need to act no need to pretend...

pure bliss~

just one of those moment....

^.^

It Feels Like Its Christmas Already!

was in Frankfurt a few days ago and it was one of the best Frankfurt flight so far.....


coz i get to meet up with my GQ batchies!!



0:D



they are my colleagues who went through the two months intensive German course with me earlier this year...

i love them to bits because they are the best batchies around!!

we had so much fun during that two months on ground...and i miss them tremendously...because of our clashing rosters...we dun get to meet up as much as we would like to...so this is one of rare opporturnity for us to meet up...and the best part is we get to meet up in Frankfurt!!

<3<3






say hello to Cath, KhengLee and Yan!!



at one of our fave pasta joint in Frankfurt...




*YummY*




after lunch we sent Yan back to hotel as she was flying back to Singapore that evening...then the rest of us went off to town for a walk...
















random camwhore shots while in the train on the way to town...and oh...say hello to Elaine...one of my colleagues from my flight....








at first our plan was to shop in town....but when we were there we kinda er...lost the plot...





*HaHa*





we ended up at the famous Frankfurter Weihnachtsmarkt!!











*WhEEeEEeeEE~!!*

this Christmas Market is one of the largest Christmas Market in the whole Germany!


the whole Roemerberg Plaza were filled with numerous stalls selling Christmassy food, drinks and souveniors....the whole place were decorated with pretty Christmassy decors and lightings!!













immediately we felt kids again!!





or okie...maybe just me...





0:P

don't u think its damn pretty!!

<3<3

at the candy stall!!





they were selling multicolours candy and assorted chocolates and nuts for Chirstmas...i'm so tempted to buy everything!!





as i was walking aro0und grinning ear to ear like a kid....busy looking at all the beautiful decors and pretty lightings...





i saw THIS!!










*screamslikealittlegirl*




a REAL Christmas tree!!





not those plasticey fakeChristmas tree we usually have back home!!


ps: it wasnt snowing when i took the picture...those white flakes u see in the photo are actually raindrops...it was actually drizzling when we were there....but we were too in awe with everything that we actually din bother bout the rain...

>.<

the beautifully decorated Christmas tree in frontof theRoemerberg Plaza...

one of my fave picture...courtesy of my boyfriend aka my G10...

0:P

and of course...such pretty scene how can i not jump in for an obligatory solo shot right...

*HeHe*

and as i tot i've seen the most beautiful thing that night....

i saw THIS!!!!!!!!!

*jumpsaroundexcitedly*

such pretty carousel!!

we girls were screaming like little girls when we saw it....it was so pretty it look like it just came off from a fairytale!

despite the screaming protests from KhengLee we dragged him to the counter...paid for the ride...and ran up the carousel!!

*LoL*

it was a two decks carousel and the main deck was filled kids so we ran upstairs and have the whole upper deck for ourselves!!

hmmm...looking at KhengLee's happy grin i don't think he regretted being dragged up into the carousel at all huh...

*HaHa*

just look at our happy kiddy faces!!!

and one last picture before we left....taken at the staircase leading up to the upper deck of the carousel....

after that we all went back to the hotel grinning like kids...

*biggrin*

just by looking through all these pictures make me feels like its Christmas already....

0:D

these are one of the moments when i feel truly blessed to have this job and to be able to fly around the world and to experience all these....

and suddenly it just crossed my mine....this might be the last Christmas i'll ever spend in overseas if i quit my job next year...

oh dear....

*biteslips*

i wonder if i'm willing to let all these go......just yet...

oh dear oh dear...

>.<

Guess Who I Bumped Into At The Airport!!

can u guess who???


neh...the one in cap with sunglasses le...

still cannot??



NAH!


sunglasses off!!


can see now??



it's WANG LEE HOM!!!

*SCREAMS*






sorry la...picture damn small coz damn scared the assistant (the one in green shirt) will kill me for taking pictures...wanted to approach him for a picture after he pass thru the customs...but the assistant was giving me the take-one-more-picture-and-i-will-bite-u look...

*GuLp*

>.<

I'm Back....

with a new blogskin!!!

*WhEeeeEe~!*





was in Nanjing for 6 days before this and it was wonderful...

China is <3...

except for the fact that they banned facebook and bloggies...

>.<

damn torturing to be away from Facebook and bloggies for so long...

luckily i didnt have much time to online anyway....was so busy sightseeing and makaning and shopping!!

everything is dirt cheap here!!

imagine i bought 3 pairs of boots for only RMB300 (approx. SGD60)!!!!

dirt dirt cheap!

i can't even get a pair of heel in Charles & Keith for that price!!

and imagine....whole set of gel nails with glitters for only RMB100 (approx. SGD20)!!!

and that's including removing my previous gel nails okie!!

super dirt cheap i love!!

O:D

and on top of that....i went for studio makeover again...the last time i did it in Taipei it costs me more than TWD10,000 (approx. SGD500)...but this time in Nanjing i only did it for RMB498 (approx. SGD100)!!! major love yo!! though the makeup, clothing and the studio not as good and professional as the one in Taipei...but hey....its bloody cheap so can't complain much le...

the reason why i wanted to do the studio makeover again was because it was snowing that day!! and they provide outdoor shoots with that price!!

<3<3<3

so i thought might as well take it with snow for remembrance...not everyday it will snow u know...

but.......

*DenGDenGDenG*

unfortunately when it's my turn to take the pictures...the snow were too heavy outside and it became more like rain rather than snow...so my photographer refused to take the outdoor shoots for me...FML

*BooHooo~!*

damn jealous coz my colleague who went with me manage to take some shots outside with her photographer...and though it was freezing cold out there and the snow looked more like rain in the photos...the photos turned out pretty amazing...

>.<

bitter la wtf!

*HmmmpH~!*

but anyway...here are some of my fave shots...these pictures are not touched up yet...probably they just did the lightings and stuff only...so its still a bit er 'raw' looking...

can see the fine lines under my eyes...the super thick makeup that make my face look 10x fairer than the rest of my body...and some flaws here and there...

oh well...i'm no model and i'm just having fun being the narcisistic me!




pls pardon my fake smile....its was so bloody cold i couldn't even smile...i was shiverring inside out!

it's REALLY cold in the studio...like probably only 1 degree or so because they do not have a heater in the studio!!

T_T

a note to myself...never ever pay to suffer again!!






the easiest 'look' to shot overall because i don't have to smile!!

its damn hard to act happy when u are shivering your ass off!

kudos to the models!




and lastly the last 'look'....it looks like im damn happy and serene in the photos...but in actual fact i was trembling and even the photographer noticed and he kept saying..."okie okie...just a few more shots okie...jiayou!"

*LoL*

i kinda like the short hair that the stylist gave me...she backcombed my hair (*OucH*) and pinned them underneath...make it look like i have volumized short bob hair...i likey...tho i do think its does make my face chubbier...




my colleague thinks that i looked like Fish Leong in this photo...what do you think?

A Dedication...

about 6 years ago...i was fresh out of college...naive, fresh faced, childish, inexperienced...and pretty much clueless about the adult world...

heartbroken from the previous relationship i was determined to get out of Malaysia...but instead of choosing to continue my studies in a university...i opted for a road less taken...to work....away from home...away from Malaysia....i chose to fly..

i cant even remember what make me send in the applications...mind u..not only to one company...but two...without consulting or seeking permissions from my parents...

only when i was chosen to go for my current's company's second interview that i casually told PapaDear, "Pa. tomorrow i need to go Nikko Hotel for second interview for S*A. Can drive me there? Or can i take the car?"

without any questions my parents drove me to the interview...and i got in....and by the next week i'm all packed to fly to Singapoere...

my parents had never questioned my decision all these while....they just supported me all the way....they had never forced me to do anything....and because of that i felt that i need to push myself more to make them proud...

so at the age of 20 i started to work in the dog eats dog world....young, fresh, naive and homesick...though i was going through a hard time adjusting to the adult world....i was indeed enjoying the new freedom i got....at the tender age of 20...i am away from parents with no control or whatsoever....and most importantly i have the power to spend...

i was enjoying myself....exploring the world...indulging myself with endless shopping and good food...and pampering myself...

but deep inside...as much as im enjoying everything that i have...deep down inside...i always feel that im missing something there...looking through friends' pictures studying in overseas make me jealous...seeing them in graduation robes make my heart sank a little bit...

for some reason i felt that im missing a part of life that i suppose to go through and i din manage to do it...that i somehow misseed it...

looking at friends' graduation pictures with their parents hurts the most...

it made me felt that despite travelling around the world and earn more money that most of my peers at that moment...i felt that i've failed to achieve something in my life...and that i've not make my parents proud...

and no......my parents have never questioned me about it...they never asked...or forced me to continue my degree....they trusted me and my decisions....

so one day...slightly less than 3 years ago...i decided to take up my degree part time...it was easy....the school fees itself was a big setback....at SGD28k...its a large sum of money...but after much calculation i've decided i need to do it...determination is all i need and i know with a little less shopping and indulging i'll surely be able to do it...

so i did....

but by the third week i wanted to give up...i called PapaDear crying and i told him i couldnt take the stress of working and at the same time going to classes....the frustration of clashing rosters with my class schedule...and the extreme workload of assignments was taking it's toll on me....and i asked PapaDear if i could quit...and all he told me is that "if u really think u cant take it, its ok...its doesnt matter as long as u r happy"....

but i went on....i was determined to do it....for them...

with the support of my family, great classmates and good friends...finally...i graduated!

i want to dedicate the day to my parents...for being the best parents in the world....for not pressuring me to do anything at all...for trusting me and supporting me....

thank you and thank you and i can never thank you enough...

and to KorKor for being the most supportive brother ever....thank you for being there for me...thank you for having my back all the time....i always know that no matter what happened i'll have you by my side...

eventhough u cant be there for me during my graduation but your flower make your presence felt....thank you!

my beloved family...

i remember during the last semester there were a little cockeup and i thought i failed one of my modules...i was devastated....i was so dissappointed with myself i cried for two nights...i din even dare to tell my Pa n Ma because i din want them to be dissappointed with me....and i still remember a friend was casually laughing me that i'm very old fashion to think that way...for one moment it got me thinking...yes it is old fashion...but all i want is to make my parents proud....that's all....i might not be the best child they have...i might not the most obedient one....i might not be most fillial one....but i do want them proud of me....growing up in a typical chinese family making it very hard to be vocal about my love for my parents....but at the end of the day getting this degree and making them proud is my unspoken way of telling them i love them....




not the most flattering picture of me...but this picture is priceless....

A Gentle Reminder...

...to myself...

to never ever be upset over people who do not care about me....


it doesnt matter...

it's just not worth it...



gotta learn to love myself more...and never ever get hurt and upset over people like them...